young/old?

i took a long train ride alone yesterday and for some reasons, i wasn't exactly very tired or sleepy. i didn't bring my earphones either, so i couldn't listen to music or radio. neither did i bring a book out (you know me, it's just not my habit to do so!) :( as a result, i didn't have anything to do throughout the entire journey. after spending some time observing random people on the train, when the train went underground at red hill, i started doing something which i thought was ultra weird, OBSERVING MYSELF/MY REFLECTION!!!

haiz i shouldn't have done so, because after looking at myself for a while, i suddenly realised that i actually looked my age now! :( to be more direct, I DON'T LOOK YOUNG ANYMORE/ I LOOK OLD/ I LOOK MATURE! :( however i phrase it, it still sounds very painful and i am totally crying now! >.<

do you see a young lady or an old woman when you look at this picture? i kept seeing a young lady, and only after reading the caption, i started looking for the old woman and finally found her. does it mean that i still have a young and optimistic soul ie i am still young ie i look young? please tell me that i do!