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there used to be a time when 1 = .

there used to be another time when 1 = 1.

there used to be a different time when 1 = 2.

there also used to be a time when 0 = 2.

and now when 0 = , life is sadder than ever.

sun-cloud-moon

haircut.

haish i have no idea but this happens to me every year! ): somehow when exams are around the corner, there’s often a weird tendency in me to go and get a haircut (and i always go for bangs) which will eventually turn out horrible and make me regret it for the rest of my life. i don’t want to list out all the instances, but i’m sure many of you haven’t forgotten what happened back in j1 (after promos and before pw op), j2 (before a levels) and uni year 1 sem 2 (before all the final presentations), just to name a few.

well, i guess after so many bad experiences, i still don’t learn my lesson. and so i let history repeat itself today, not in a good way! ):

change.

3 years ago, both 179 and 199 operated from the old bus interchange and to board the buses, we needed to walk all the way to the end of the interchange.

2 years ago, the old interchange ceased operations but 179 and 199 still operated from there, but we could board the buses from the berth where we previously waited for 242.

1 year ago, 179 and 199 both moved to the new interchange. however, there was a period during 179 and 199 both changed their routes temporarily due to YOG. subsequently, 199 also changed its route to enter jp through the library side instead of the park side like before.

so many things have changed during the past 3 years right? i wonder what other changes will take place in the coming 3 years, 6 years, or 9 year. well, i guess, after all, change is really the only constant.

someone like you.

"imagine a future moment in your life where all your dreams come true. you know it's the greatest moment of your life and you get to experience it with one person. who's standing next to you?"

i used to know very clearly and very surely who would be standing next to me when all my dreams come true, or should i say, when all our dreams come true. but now i can't say the same anymore. if i could turn back time to the happy/ unhappy days of 2008, or even 2009 and 2010, i certainly would but am i able to? no i am not. so what should i do now? i should be stronger than this, i know, i should and i don't wanna be a person that needs help but i feel all alone.

there comes a time when everything in life goes off course. in this desperate moment, who will you be? will you let down your defenses, and find solitude in someone unexpected? will you reach out? will you face your greatest fears bravely, and move forward with faith? or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul?

sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past, and maybe the future too!

on a side note, time has never passed by so slowly before! for the past few hours, i've been lying here wishing that dawn would bring some sunlight soon but all i've seen is just a dark cloudless sky and, sadly, with neither moon nor stars.

choices.

in life, you often have to make decisions. actually making choices is kind of inevitable, and choices are made every minute or even every second. haish, sometimes i just wish someone could make certain decisions on my behalf, so that i don't have to waste so much time considering the pros and cons and finally settling for a choice which may or may not make me happy afterwards.

so anyone out there who's willing to help me? this is not a tough choice, i just need you to help me pick one of the two numbers, 2 or 10?

porridge! ):

yay so finally after 3 days of eating just porridge, i could eat normal food again! :D :D :D seriously the last 3 days were the worst period of my life, i've never felt so sad before. the sight of food, no matter vietnamese oriental western japanese korean malay or even indian, made me extremely emotional and want to cry! ): i had cravings for so many things but couldn't eat anything. fortunately this series of torturing is finally over, and i can eat whatever i want again! :D life's all good now lalala! good bye good poisoning, good bye porridge!