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there used to be a time when 1 = .

there used to be another time when 1 = 1.

there used to be a different time when 1 = 2.

there also used to be a time when 0 = 2.

and now when 0 = , life is sadder than ever.

sun-cloud-moon

haircut.

haish i have no idea but this happens to me every year! ): somehow when exams are around the corner, there’s often a weird tendency in me to go and get a haircut (and i always go for bangs) which will eventually turn out horrible and make me regret it for the rest of my life. i don’t want to list out all the instances, but i’m sure many of you haven’t forgotten what happened back in j1 (after promos and before pw op), j2 (before a levels) and uni year 1 sem 2 (before all the final presentations), just to name a few.

well, i guess after so many bad experiences, i still don’t learn my lesson. and so i let history repeat itself today, not in a good way! ):

change.

3 years ago, both 179 and 199 operated from the old bus interchange and to board the buses, we needed to walk all the way to the end of the interchange.

2 years ago, the old interchange ceased operations but 179 and 199 still operated from there, but we could board the buses from the berth where we previously waited for 242.

1 year ago, 179 and 199 both moved to the new interchange. however, there was a period during 179 and 199 both changed their routes temporarily due to YOG. subsequently, 199 also changed its route to enter jp through the library side instead of the park side like before.

so many things have changed during the past 3 years right? i wonder what other changes will take place in the coming 3 years, 6 years, or 9 year. well, i guess, after all, change is really the only constant.

someone like you.

"imagine a future moment in your life where all your dreams come true. you know it's the greatest moment of your life and you get to experience it with one person. who's standing next to you?"

i used to know very clearly and very surely who would be standing next to me when all my dreams come true, or should i say, when all our dreams come true. but now i can't say the same anymore. if i could turn back time to the happy/ unhappy days of 2008, or even 2009 and 2010, i certainly would but am i able to? no i am not. so what should i do now? i should be stronger than this, i know, i should and i don't wanna be a person that needs help but i feel all alone.

there comes a time when everything in life goes off course. in this desperate moment, who will you be? will you let down your defenses, and find solitude in someone unexpected? will you reach out? will you face your greatest fears bravely, and move forward with faith? or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul?

sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past, and maybe the future too!

on a side note, time has never passed by so slowly before! for the past few hours, i've been lying here wishing that dawn would bring some sunlight soon but all i've seen is just a dark cloudless sky and, sadly, with neither moon nor stars.

choices.

in life, you often have to make decisions. actually making choices is kind of inevitable, and choices are made every minute or even every second. haish, sometimes i just wish someone could make certain decisions on my behalf, so that i don't have to waste so much time considering the pros and cons and finally settling for a choice which may or may not make me happy afterwards.

so anyone out there who's willing to help me? this is not a tough choice, i just need you to help me pick one of the two numbers, 2 or 10?

porridge! ):

yay so finally after 3 days of eating just porridge, i could eat normal food again! :D :D :D seriously the last 3 days were the worst period of my life, i've never felt so sad before. the sight of food, no matter vietnamese oriental western japanese korean malay or even indian, made me extremely emotional and want to cry! ): i had cravings for so many things but couldn't eat anything. fortunately this series of torturing is finally over, and i can eat whatever i want again! :D life's all good now lalala! good bye good poisoning, good bye porridge!

unwell.

horrible horrible horrible day!!! after the gum infection got better, i thought i could sleep peacefully at night. but noooo, i was so so so wrong! when i was lying down and about to sleep at 11pm last night, my stomach suddenly felt weird and then it continued hurting for the next 2 hours, after which i couldn't take it anymore and went to vomit. and that was also what happened for the whole night, until like 5am when i finally managed to fall asleep. at 6am, the stomachache woke me up again! ):

haish i swear that i'd rather just die last night. if there's only one thing that i can't stand in this world, its pain, especially physical pain since my tolerance for pain is almost zero. hmm actually there are a lot of other things which i can't stand also but never mind about them first. anyways anyways, i even wanted to go a&e last night, that was how bad it was. phew, luckily it seems okay now. i'll just bring my medicine along wherever i go, just in case.

haha i'm so whiny right? i wonder how people around me can bear with me! i've received a lot of feedback recently, but do you think i seriously care? no i dont! :D

hamster pea!

i woke up with a swollen gum today! ): and the right side of my face was as fat as that of a hamster. but that's not the worst thing. what's more horrible is that i couldn't really talk/ drink/ eat/ laugh at all. whenever i moved my facial muscles, it hurt like a lot. but guess what? i'm perfectly fine now! :D to be still alive now, there are a few people that i would like to thank:

• nguyen quoc anh for calling nguyen quynh anh and getting scolded by her
• nguyen quynh anh for prescribing the superb antibiotics which took effect within an hour
• koh pei jun, alvin for helping me buy mee sua and herbal tea
• liau chin khai for helping me buy porridge
• muhammad wahidin bin wahid for being such a naggy little sister

i feel so loved! :D and those two little boys (#3 and #4) are way too cute haha!

knee...

the weather has been really unpredictable over the last few days. its strangely cold, not just at night but in the day as well because it keeps raining. haish this is not good at all! ): when there's a weather change from hot to cold, my right knee often reacts adversely, like it hurt a little the other day when i went jogging after the rain and it felt rather weird just now when i was climbing the stairs from south spine to north spine in school. oh no what's happening? i barely remember that there used to be something wrong with one of my knees when i was smaller, but i can't exactly recall which knee it was and what actually happened. meow time to consume more calcium! :D meiji chocolate milk is love yo!



heow!

argh i know i shouldn't be too easily affected by external circumstances but seriously some people are just getting into my nerves and i honestly can't concentrate on whatever i'm supposed to do anymore although i'm trying very hard to be cool. how horrible!!! >.< i just feel like screaming really loudly right now! boom boom bish!

fire/water

there are two groups of people in this world - one consists of 'fire' people who just boil your blood while the other is made up of 'water' people who simply calm you down. there's no way to determine whether the 'fire' people or the 'water' people are better. i'm hydrophylic and hence biased, so of course i prefer the 'water' people (it should be pretty obvious since this post is so clearly prejudicial against the 'fire' people). okay this is purely random, don't think too much about it! ;)

jar of hearts.

who do you think you are?

running around leaving scars

collecting your jar of hearts

and tearing love apart...

to swim or not to swim?

falling.

i have a strong tendency to fall down when walking up/down stairs these days. i've almost lost my balance three times on three consecutive days! ): what's wrong? am i just careless and clumsy or is something scary happening inside? >.< mi is slightly worried!



left handers!

i'm so bored in class and can't bring myself to pay attention to whatever the professor is saying, so i'm spending my time observing random people in the classroom. out of the many things i notice, something stands out - there's a left hander!!! and that's how my weird attraction to left-handers is back to haunt me! >.<

just a random fact, 13 august is international left-handers' day! :D

break-up?

must break-ups always be seen as a negative thing? well, i guess most of the time, they have unhappy endings and either or both of the parties involved are left heart-broken. however, i don't see the need to generalise this kind of ending to all situations! i believe that if you're cool enough, you will be able to emerge out of a break-up stronger than before since you've learnt valuable lessons which are difficult to be taught in any other way. and ending a relationship also means starting up another relationship and opening up a new chapter of our life. who knows? this new relationship and new chapter might be 10000 times better than the last. isn't this a happy ending too?

i wish i were a boy!

seriously must this happen every single month? ):

racer?

please explain to me which part of me gives you the impression that i join motorbike races for a living? :O i almost choked on my saliva when i received a message from an unknown number, congratulating me for successfully registering for the ntu race pit stop and reminding to change to my sparkling new tyres and refill my tank soon! seriously omg haha!

i love it when i feel reborn and refreshed and rejuvenated after i shower! (: well, i've always known that i'm hydrophilic, so of course water energises me. but only after today did i discover that morning tonic is magical as well!

please do not think that those lines have been taken off some advertisements. haha they are true personal feelings which come from the bottom of my heart! :D

the real tagline is something like 'lose yourself in a reviving shower moment'. okay let me find it! yes here it is!

Morning Tonic

Sleepy? Wake up with a reviving shower

Awaken your senses with Palmolive Aromatherapy Morning Tonic in your shower. With uplifting lemony notes, its formula is infused with Tangerine essential oil and extract of Lemongrass. Stimulate your mind and spirit in a blissful shower moment.

ah i'm being random again, but whatever! i just really like it a lot, so if you have yet to try it, why are you still waiting for? ;)

uncool!

september has always been my favourite month, like since the beginning of time. but this year's september hasn't been good to me. so many horrible things have been happening and sometimes i just wish that this september were just a nightmare and would be over once i wake up.

i've always detested those competitive monsters in nbs who know about everything and anything academic. i've always made fun of how they dont have a life, since they only spend their time on school work and nothing more than that. i've always wondered how they stand living in such a pathetic way. but guess what? now i wish i could be a bit more like them.

since the start of university, i've never been really aware of what's going on around me academically. i mostly depend on my friends for notes, latest announcements and deadlines. i'm too lazy to find out information on my own, even though the information may be important to me. like they often say, 'if you fail to plan, you plan to fail.' i know how true it is now.

well, i guess i really deserve to be scolded. i really deserve to be rid of a chance to go for exchange. i really deserve to face the consequences of my failure to plan. but i still feel that it's just too cruel and i can't stop crying! =((((((((( i know its uncool, but who cares?

discipline!

i need to be more self-disciplined! otherwise i think i'll just waste my life away and i so don't want that! >.<

pingwin!

my tutor is so cute!!! he showed us cute videos of penguins playing pingpong in class today, wishing that it'd brighten up our days! :D :D :D

at the end of the day when you graduate from university, i guess things like this will actually matter more and be remembered forever, as compared to accounting concepts and banking formulae. well, actually accounting concept and banking formulae might be important too haha, but for me in the short term, cute things done by the people around me make me smile while accounting concepts and banking formulae dont.

its not been that long ago...

have you ever been in a situation when you feel as if something happened so long ago while actually it took place just a while back? today i suddenly realised that july and september were just about 2 months apart and last monday was just like a week ago! x.x is it because i'm slow or because time's fast? ):

once upon a time...

when the train i was on yesterday reached jurong east, a schoolboy wearing uniform boarded. i guessed he must be a bad boy, because he looked so excessively casual in his uniform. so since i didn't really have anything else to do, i decided to just be like a kyaw saw lynn and scanned through the way his uniform was worn. and guess what i saw? drawstrings in his shirt!!!

omg it reminded so much of how we were so excited, buying shoe laces to put in our blouses when we got the first sets of ac uniforms. it doesn't seem so long ago, but hey it's been more than 4 years!!! in university now there's no need to wear uniform anymore, which i'm not sure is a good or bad thing. but sometimes, i really do miss putting on that white blouse with navy blue inner collar, that navy blue folded skirt, and finally that shiny gold badge! ):

maze!

i'm just little bit caught in the middle

life is a maze and love is a riddle...

fuckers should just die!

WHICHEVER FUCKER STOLE MY CLOTHES AND SWIMSUIT SHOULD JUST KILL HIM/HERSELF TO MAKE THE WORLD A BETTER PLACE FOR EVERYONE!!!

sorry for the vulgarity, i don't usually swear in public and certainly not in my blog but seriously who in the right state of mind would steal someone else's SWIMSUIT??? it pissed me off so much that i just totally burst out crying, but then i realised that it'd be a waste shredding tears over such a fucker! haish but i'm still very very very sad! ): its my team suit and it won't be the same anymore, even if i get the exact same set again. and omg this has never happened to me before! like i stayed in hall 10 for 2 years and i've not lost even just a sock, and i've just been here for like what? less than a month and my clothes and swimsuit just disappeared in front of my eyes?

what else do i hate about this place? oh there are plenty of things and it will probably just take the next 2 semesters if i want to list everything out. but i hate my toilet-mates who are so fucking dirty and lazy and ungrateful. and i hate the fucking door which can't be locked properly. arghhh i can just explode right now!!!

10 vs 2?

haish i miss those days at hall 10 block 50 when i could just run along the corridor shouting random stuff and someone would just respond to me! ): i miss those days at hall 10 block 50 when i had so many people gathered in my room that i could talk about anything to them! ): i miss those days at hall 10 block 50 when i just decided to hold a random fruit party and people would just immediately join me! ):

it's not like i don't like it here since i have friends here too, but it's just different, and not in a very good way! ): well, i guess it takes a while to get used to. who knows next year i may be missing life at hall 2 block 1 right? ;)

a little bit too much?

dont you think it's a little bit too much? you're so going overboard that i can't stand you anymore. i can seriously just explode right now argggh!

yes i know you love me and just want the best for me, but can you please realise that what you want may not always be what i want? for close to 4 years, you opposed to what i wanted so strongly that i couldn't take it anymore and had to give up and do like you said. when i'm finally moving on, you bring it up again, comparing this and that. what the hell are you trying to do?  i don't want the past to repeat itself again you know? you just don't want me to be happy, do you?

i'm old enough to make my own decisions and i'm clever enough to choose my friends. please stop imposing your beliefs on me, because i seriously don't think that it'll ever work. please stop thinking that you're always the best example for me and my life will be the same as yours, because it has never been and never will be. please stop judging people without even knowing them, because it will just make you seem so myopic and close-minded. please stop mentioning that disgusting loser every time we talk, because it makes me want to hang up immediately. please just trust me okay MOTHER?

poet pea?

my mom's hilarious seriously!!! she just asked me to help her write a poem, and in vietnamese! omg which part of me looks like i am a poet? and which part of me looks like i can even compose something in vietnamese properly? :D

past, present, future?

i know this picture is over-used, very over-used but i just can't find any other picture which can depict the situation i'm in right now. haish i'm confused and lost again, trying to find my way between the past, the present and the future. i know memories are hard to erase, and actually i have no intention of forgetting anything on purpose. however, there are just so many of them that i often feel like i'm drowning in an ocean of memories. argh this is so not cool! >.< i seriously need to get over the past to get on with the present and the future, but how am i gonna do it?

summer rain!

i'm home again for a short holiday and its been raining over the last 2 days because of some typhoon. as a result, i've basically been slacking at home, enjoying the tranquility which comes with the place, the people and the weather. the sun will probably come out again tomorrow, which is cool since i can start going out with friends, eating and shopping soon! :D however excited i am, i must admit that i'm still not quite over the fact that banana isn't here to do all these things with me. haha funny how its been almost 3 years and i'm still not used to it yet! :(



flowers.

since young i've liked nothing but sunflower and i really think that it's the prettiest flower of all. i often associate happy things with sunflower because i can't help smiling looking at the happy yellow of a sunflower. now i still like sunflower and the happiness it brings when i look at it. however, i just realise that carnation is really beautiful too! (: while sunflower signals happiness, carnation shall mean peace and it's now my second favourite flower!



another sign of old age.

despite spending one third of my life thus far here, i still cant seem to get used to the madly fast pace at which everything moves. at almost everywhere i go, i see people perpetually in a hurry rushing for this and that. well i have nothing against people being on the move all the time because that's the only way for our society to progress and prosper, but i guess there must be times where we all just take a step back, isolate ourselves from all the human satellites around us and simply appreciate life at our own pace.

 

time is a scarce resource, i get it. but seriously does it hurt to just wait for 10 more seconds for the traffic light to turn green during which you can watch the people around you and be thankful that you can see? does it hurt to wait for 100 more seconds for someone who's just slightly late for a lunch appointment during which you can enjoy the summer breeze and be thankful that you can feel? does it hurt to wait for 1000 more seconds to queue for your favourte dessert and be thankful that you can taste? patience is a virtue, and it's saddening to see it slowly disappearing.

 

i think that i was born either at the wrong place or in the wrong era. i feel that my mindset seems to belong more to someone from the 1st century rather than one from the 21st century. i admit that i have inexplicably weird and non-youngsterish habits and hobbies. haha but oh well, i guess that i'll just have to live with myself.

 

 

quarter-life crisis!

a short-sighted person, i honestly have no long term vision. well, you may be wondering why i ain't wearing any spectacles but hey, i'm not talking in the most literal sense of the words. what i mean is that i prefer seeing immediate results in the things i do rather than waiting for a long term achievement. this may suggest that i'm not forward-looking which isn't exactly a good thing, but i just can't help it.

my internship is really making my life miserable. i don't know how many times i've said this already, but it's a fact that needs to be emphasised. i left the office today, totally emotional and unresponsive. if you had seen me on the way to the mrt station, you'd probably have thought that i were just a soulless body or something. but honestly i felt that life was so meaningful since i'd been doing the same things at work everyday without seeing any major impact whatever i was doing had brought/ could potentially bring to someone else's life. this is not where i should be. i think i'd be better off being a doctor/nurse/teacher/care-giver/customer service officer where i can see people instead of numbers or words.

my only consolation now is that this internship will be ending soon. haish i wonder how i'd survive when i officially start working in the future since for that, i won't be able to see an end to the long series of sufferings. looking at those people squeezing themselves onto the train at the end of a tiring day at work, i really can't tell how man of them are actually happy. maybe none? so is it a good deal selling your soul everyday for a few thousand dollars every month?

urgg i'm turning sockish!!! someone please save me from myself!! i want to revert to the QP of 4 years ago who blogged about meaningless stuff rather than things which actually make sense.

i'm so whiny i can't stand myself!

random things i discovered today:

1) i think i'll do well as a party planner! as much as i'd like to make myself and others believe that i'm anti-social, i'm always planning gatherings and outings! ): my 'events-to-plan' list in my personal calendar is just about 193857930110 times longer than my 'tasks-to-do' list in my work calendar (which is practically non-existent anyways).

2) i'm consistently reading the newpapers everyday now and hence very in touch with current affairs. an article on TODAY today says that a mother older than 34 years is 2 times more likely to miscarry. this news is alarming, gosh, i need to get married and have children soon or otherwise my children wont turn out to be as cute as me! >.<

3) i think i'm either very bored at work or turning into a lesbian! i find the girl on some advertisement at the back of TODAY today extremely pretty and i just can't help staring at her occasionally throughout the entire day! *blushes* <<< this is ultra huangish by the way!

4) my cute boy list is getting famous, haha, so many people know about it! :D one of my friends called me at like 9ish this morning when i just stepped into the office to tell me to check my emails since he had just submitted a photo of a potential cute boy #9 candidate for my approval!!! but since when do i number my cute boys in this manner right?

5) call me ignorant/self-centered/delusional all you want, but seriously i think i'm about the nicest and most patient person i could ever meet. and even the nicest and most patient person in my world has to scream at times, so there's no way other people don't get angry/ lose their temper. to my horror, just over the last week i've heard of a person who couldn't recall the last time he got angry and another person who annoyed someone else by not being annoyed when overly exposed to overly annoying acts. how could such people exist?

okay end of random whines! time to start packing! omg i just so hate packing and unpacking argggggh! oops that was another whine! :p

happiness!

someone once asked me what i'd do if the world really ended in 2012 like in the movie 2012. the question caught me by surprise as i'd never given such an issue much thought. indeed there are so many things in life i want to do that i will spend until 2012 to list them all out and by then, it might have been too late! so essentially what is the most important thing in life? i guess everyone has different goals, and for me, i just want to always be happy with whatever i do! (:

"Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering."

true colours.

out of the hundreds of friends you have on facebook, how many do you actually interact with? out of the smaller hundreds of friends you interact with on facebook, how many are actually your friends in real life? out of the dozens of friends you have in real life, how many do you actually feel so comfortable with that you can tell them everything and anything? well, i'm not sure about you, but personally i don't seem to have shown my true colours to that many of my friends. if i really have to give an exact figure, it might just be ONE.

over the last week, my friends have been really surprised that i seem to be so strong and take it pretty well.  i'm cool i know! i have no idea since when its been this way, but i just have my way of appearing cheerful and carefree even during the worst of the worst. putting on a mask over my emotions is no longer a difficult task but sometimes, i do wonder whether this is the best way to deal with things. believe me, it's not like i don't trust the people who care for me or anything, but i just don't want them to worry about me. hmm i guess i have to take the glory/blame for my decisions and no one else should be responsible for them. having said that, it's still hard on me on occasions when i really miss and need my best friend who's no longer by my side. arghhhhhhhhhh pea be strong! yes life moves on and time will heal all wounds!

oh and on a side note, this place has been really dark and gloomy lately, i need to brighten it up!

roles.

There are different departments in a company which bear different responsibilities. Similarly, there are different people in one’s life who hold different roles. Just like how a corp comms officer will suck at accounting and it will be a nightmare for an accountant to represent the company to the media, the duties assumed by different people in one’s life are more or less ‘specialised’ and usually not interchangeable. Take my life for example. P1 and P2 are irreplaceable as my BFFs. P3 is second to none as my soulmate. P4 is great as my roommate. P_s are exceptional as my classmates. P_s are outstanding as my fellow whiners. P_s are extraordinary as my shopping partners. If I continue adding on to this list, it will probably go on forever. But yeah, I’m sure you get the point! However fantastic these people are at playing their ‘assigned’ roles, I can never imagine any of them switching over to another position. Like seriously, it’d be disastrous if P1 or P2 ever became my roommate, I’d honestly just rather sleep at the corridor at night!

So I guess we should just try to find our roles in the lives of those important to us and, at the same time, be certain about the roles in our life held by those important to us. This is so as to avoid the risk of losing them forever if things ever turn ugly once there’s an unfitting switch in roles.

choices.

There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroad; afraid, confused, without a roadmap. The choices we make in those moments will define us for the rest of our days. Of course, when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back. But once in a while people push onto something better - something found just beyond the pain of going it alone, and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in, or to give someone a second chance; something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream. Because it's only when you're tested that you discover who you truly are. And it's only when you're tested that you discover who you can be. The person you want to be does exist, somewhere on the other side of hard work, faith and belief; and beyond the heartache and fear of what lies ahead.

i'm a heartbreaker.

I’ve broken many hearts, including my own.

Well I guess you’ve made a point saying that there should be one day when I get my heart broken by someone else.

goodbyes!

if i ever ask me what i hate the most, i will definitely say 'goodbyes' (at least for now). being the excessively sentimental soul that i am, you should know by now that i often have too much affection to the people i've been with for a relatively long time and also attach too much emotions to the things i've had for a relatively long time and the places i've stayed in for a relatively long time. that's why i also find it extremely difficult, sometimes almost impossible, to bid farewell to these people/things/places who/which have somehow become a part of me. hence, i am always reluctant to make new friends, throw away old things (this is an exceptional case because i still buy a lot of new things haha) and move from one place to another.

that being said, some things are just inevitable and at times i don't really have a choice as we don't always get what we want in life. and how i arrived at this stage is my own fault. i have to be responsible for my decisions, though i'm regretting it every minute now. well, but i guess life moves on right?

japanese client!

What’s the name of the Japanese client?

I can’t remember right now. I’ll get back to you later.

Is it Suzuki-san?

Hmm I’ve never heard that name before.

Could it be Mitsubishi-san then?

I’m not sure either.

Or maybe it is Toyota-san?

I don’t know any Toyota-san.

Do you know Toyota? It’s a car, you know?

Oh…

But honestly, I love Mazda-san. I see him everyday and can’t stand it without him.

Yeah, I know you drive a Mazda!

Tell me this is not funny! (I bet you just can’t do that right?) I almost died laughing, especially when my ang-moh supervisor tried talking with his failed singlish accent. Little things like this make a boring day at work much more tolerable. I love my 3 cute colleagues now seriously!

#1 is so funny all the time and keeps bringing me to all the cool conferences to meet all the cool people at all the cool places!

#2 is so understanding all the time and keeps asking me whether I’m bored at work and telling me to go back early if I have nothing to do!

#3 is so motherly all the time and keeps giving me food and bringing me to auntie-ish places!

Roar and now about half of my internship is over!

convenience theory.

Do you like me out of convenience?

Well, I must agree that this is a relatively difficult question to answer, despite that there is just one right answer in all situations, “Yes”. Seriously, whoever says “No” must definitely be a liar.

Every person out there must have some good points (or at least I hope so!), so basically it is not that hard to like someone. All that is needed is that you must meet that person at the right place at the right time. So in this case, there’s no such thing as ‘the right person’ but just ‘the right place’ and ‘the right time’. And a combination of ‘the right place’ and ‘the right time’ definitely meets the definition of ‘convenience’.

A nicer way to call the combination of ‘the right place’ and ‘the right time’ mentioned above is ‘fate’. Yeah, isn’t common to hear expressions like “It must be fate!” or “They’re fated to be together!”? Of course, they are nothing too unusual right? But in essence, don’t ‘convenience’ and ‘fate’ actually mean the same thing?

 

some day i might know my heart...

… but now I don’t!

Haish why must life be so difficult? ):

worst day ever!

Wednesday 22 June 2011 was the day when everything just went wrong! ): And everything actually included key card, buddy’s advice, slightly belated sms-es and phone calls, crowded trains, noisy and inconsiderate people, zara, forever 21, mango, g2000, crowded trains, long queues for bus, empty mailbox, dark empty scary comms hall, locked door, locked toilet, no clothes, no toiletries, no bed, no pillow, no blanket, …

Omg I refuse to continue listing because if I do, I will just literally burst out in tears! Haish but I’m happy that at least everything is over now and thankful for that buddy of mine. Thanks again and sorry again!

emo ttm! ):

today was the earliest day i reached home since i started working and guess what time it was? 7:46pm! ): haish initially i planned to go jogging after dinner, but after i was dismissed, i was so tired that i could hardly even walk and i swear i would have immediately fainted if i ran, so i totally scrapped the idea of going jogging. now i know how hard it is to have work-life balance especially when you work in the finance sector, oh, in any industry! >.<

today was a really bad day for various reasons:

(1) i was sms-ing my friends at work while doing some random things on facebook when i heard a strange voice behind my back, "where's ____?" (___ is my supervisor's name) and when i turned back, i totally freaked out upon realising that that person was the see-ee-oh of the company i am working for!!! i couldn't respond quickly enough to hide my phone/ open some annual reports to read/ close facebook. hicks but i guess my supervisor was in a worse situation than me since he was on a conference call with his london colleagues and they were totally discussing abt some europe road trip! :D haha but seriously, all my colleagues would never expect the see-ee-oh to come all the way down to my floor just to look for someone. some of them even went like, "who was that? he looks familiar!"

(2) trust me, i am really very responsive and my reaction time is usually measured in nanoseconds. however, i couldn't close facebook fast enough in the above-mentioned incident because the stupid laptop totally hung!!! for the whole of today, it kept hanging dont know how many thousand times and every time that happened, it would last for at least half an hour, which made me so frustrated that i couldn't just sit there and wait for it to respond but instead, had to walk in and out of the office so make time to pass by faster. the worst thing is that when i came back, the stupid machine still didn't respond which made me swear at it which was heard by my colleague who probably thinks that i'm a bad and vulgar little girl now! argh honestly, what's the point of having the fastest trading engine when your computers hang every minute?

(3) i want to continue watching coffee prince to relieve my emo-ness but i can't find a single website to watch it. mysoju is totally not loading and dramacrazy doesn't have the links anymore while youtube has never had any video uploaded! ):

haish seriously my life now is the saddest and most boring ever known. i think working makes me emo, i just want to study for exams right now!

rashes!

so yeah, i've been sick since last wednesday and seriously, its a horrible horible experience! ): initially, my sore throat weren't that severe, but it still reminded me of the last time when i had a sore throat which was just about a month ago and at the time, i felt it wasn't fun to have your throat hurt every time you talked/swallowed food/drank water. and i thought it might be good to be away from the office for a few days, so i decided to see the doctor and take an mc.

however, things got out of hand and not only did my sore throat worsened, my sickness developed into a flu with runny nose and cough as well. on top of it all, stupid nat came at a very bad timing, and since i didn't really exercise much during the past month, cramps were as bad as hell! ):

so yeah, i took many different kinds of medicine and now i have rashes all over my upper body which is so so so so sickkkkkk omg just kill me now! its seriously so disgusting and itchy and i just want to scratch myself or maybe peel off my skin every other second! what do i do with my life now? meow i ish sad! >.<

evilness defeated! ):

seriously how could a washing machine look so much like a dryer? :( :( :( i swear the whole wide world would have thought that it was a dryer instead of a washing machine! roar i didn't notice that it was a washing machine either, and happily put all my washed clothes inside for drying. only after i inserted the coin and selected the mode did i notice something slightly strange - there was water flowing in the 'dryer'. "how is that possible?" i asked myself and started to read the instructions and freaking screamed when seeing the words 'washing machine'! >.<

i have a sad life, really. when things like this happen to me, i feel so absolutely powerless and useless and i'm not even kidding (i was speechless and looked totally lost on the way back to my room from the laundry room)! arghhh! buddy's buddy asks me to stop emoing as it just seems impossible for an evil person like me to be defeated by a washing machine. haish but i guess impossible is nothing.