life is a torture!

i thought examination period was the darkest period of my life, but i was wrong. post-examination period is just equally, if not more, torturous! :( here are the things that make me come to this conclusion:

1. hall is becoming like a haunted place as it is always so frighteningly quiet and seriously lacks liveliness. as much as i used love the serenity of hall at weekends when everyone wasn't around, the same tranquility is now scaring me and i absolutely have no idea why! :( i think i'm too used to always having at least 2 refugees in my room during examination period! although they were irritating as they always stopped me from playing tetris, their presence kept me through 2 weeks of nightmares. omg i think i miss the -ie(s)! what do i do now?? :(

2. i have such a loooooooooong to-do list and looking at it makes me wanna puke! over the last 3 days i've only managed to tick 2 of the things listed in there and completing those two tasks was not achieved with ease. okay so the other day, i took out all the tops/shirts/blouses from my wardrobe wishing to rearrange them in an organised manner. after laying everything on my bed, i got distracted and went to watch 2 movies. when i finally finished the second movie, it was already 12ish and sock needed to sleep because she'd have a morning paper the next day, so i had no choice but to sleep with all my tops/shirts/blouses still on my bed. trust me, it wasn't such a pleasant experience as i almost drowned in my own clothes! :(

3. i go shopping like everyday and now i am having a deficit! :( my heart ached so badly yesterday when i had to scissors-paper-stone with my friend to decide whether to buy a top or two and i lost, not just once or twice, but three times! :( i really want to go shopping again, because zara/ bershka/pull&bear/stradivarius sales are launched today but i promised to myself that i would not buy anything else till the end of 2011 and the thought of going window shopping is just so suffocating! :(

so yeah, thats how life my life is now! its weird, i know, but i just wish i were still revising for my exams! >.<

qp's theories of cloud evolution

so i was sitting at a table opposite a huge window with a fantastic view in the library. and so in the library i was trying to study. and so i was tired in the library. and so in the library i started daydreaming and imagining random stuff. and so i came up with my theories of cloud evolution in the library.

qp's first theory of cloud evolution: a snail cloud will evolve into a turtle cloud over time which will eventually turn into a dinosaur cloud and disappear.

qp's second theory of cloud evolution: a chicken cloud will flip itself to become a dolphin cloud which will turn into a fish cloud as time passes and then jump into the water cloud and disappear.

lessons learnt: libraries are places where legends are made and i am legendary!

standards?

i  believe that i used to have higher standards. the key words here are "used to" which suggests that i am not adhering to such standards anymore.

it suddenly struck me really hard just now when i painfully noticed how much i had changed to accommodate the situations and people around me. i'm pretty sure that i'd never tolerate such situations and entertain such people in the past. now that i think about it, i remember how much things and people like that disgusted me. and i was frightened to realise that i seemed to have been seasoned and be now accepting of such behaviours and people. luckily i have not brought myself down to their level yet (or at least i hope so!).

i am thankful for being given the opportunity to do this very important self-reflection. now i shall revert to my standards: if you pass the test, congratulations! but if you don't, it's just too bad. i won't lower my standards anymore just to let sub-standard people pass the test.

today was a fairytale? not.

it was horrible and left me speechless after it ended. never before in my life had i gone through such an experience before. yes, i totally agree that there's always a first time for everything, but for this, no i'd rather that there would never be a first time.

so i had my investments paper today. during the last few weeks of school, the thought of mc-ing the paper was continually in my mind but in the end, i thought i was sufficiently well prepared, thanks to the wonderful cheatsheet that i spent one whole week doing and was super proud of, so i decided to take the paper so that i'd not have to retake it next semester. on the way to the exam hall, i even asked myself "what is the worst thing that can happen?" and the answer was simple, "the worst thing would be that i fail investments and have to retake it next semester, which is totally in part of the plan." hence there was virtually no reason for me to be sad or anything. and so i went into the exam hall with confidence.

the MCQs were alright, which means i could do half and could guess half. after spending the first hour on the MCQs, i moved on to the structured questions.

first question, "hmm that seems difficult, okay skip first and come back later."
second question, "wow this is hard too, okay skip first and come back later."
third question, "omg what does it mean? i've never heard such a term before. never mind, hopefully question 4 will be better."
fourth question, "huh? isnt it supposed to be in bf219? what is it doing here in bf215 paper?"

yes, i spent 15 minutes flipping through the question paper and in the end, wrote 3 lines in my answer booklet. i so wanted to leave the hall after that, but i guessed i'd feel really guilty if i really did that, since there were still 45 more minutes till the end of the paper and i didnt like finish it or anything. so i stayed in the exam hall, admiring the beauty of my cheatsheet, observing people around me and staring at the clock, waiting for time to pass.

after the paper, i still hoped that the bell curve would somehow work out some magic to save me. however, when i was walking out of the hall, i heard these guys discussing abt the paper with one another and the first thing i heard went something like this "omg i'm so scared, i think i can only get A- for investments!" awwww, so sad right? poor guy, he must be devastated! i figured he'd even be more so if i gave him a slap on the face.

talking to chingwei and erica after the paper made me feel a bit better. but after i left business library and walked to the bus stop alone, i felt really sad again. i didnt know why i even felt sad, especially when i was mentally prepared since the very beginning. i guess i didnt expect it to be that bad. the -ies in hall was so worried when they saw me, or my spirit, flying into the room. all i could tell them was "winnie died, investments killed her."

okay hello everyone! i didnt really want to blog about exams, but since this is an once-in-a-lifetime experience (hopefully), it would be a waste not mentioning it at all. yeah, so here i am, fully recovered after the emotional trauma and all ready to ace bf219 to make up for the losses incurred in bf215.

i'd like to thank laurel and cherry for the very encouraging messages, chingwei and erica for talking to me, -ies for the concern and the 3 of you for watching hello stranger with me! (:

so i guess i cant say goodbye to all these things yet haha!

not now.

its not like i love ntu canteens so much that i dont want to go out and eat. its not like there're so many interesting things to do in ntu that i dont want to go out and play. its not like the whole world is in ntu so i dont want to go out and meet people. hello i am just in the midst of exams, please understand!

paradox of choice.

i often complain that i don't like doing this and that because i have no choice. but sometimes having too many choices isn't necessarily a good thing. 

when we are faced with having to choose one option out of many desirable choices, we will begin to consider hypothetical trade-offs. our options are evaluated in terms of missed opportunities instead of the opportunity's potential. one of the downsides of making trade-offs is it alters how we feel about the decisions we face; afterwards, it affects the level of satisfaction we experience from our decision.

haiz i really want to give it serious thoughts but this is really not the right time. exams are coming soon (in like 2 days?) and i have no idea why i am so so so distracted. argggh seriously i need to shake myself out of this horrible state! its not as easy as shaking my head like mad to get out of the act cute mode though! >.<

koh cheng xian laurel!

koh cheng xian laurel is someone who:

• was my first three month classmate
• was banana's og-mate which i crashed during orientation 2
• kept bullying me and calling me names
• made fun of my height every single time she saw me
• was in my darling piggy's class which had the same lectures as mine
• didn't like my favourite teacher in jc
• followed me to ntu/nbs
• begged me to be in the same class as her for bf219
• forced me to see her 2572046801680 times a week
• could go on forever about her cutie tan
• hated whats-her-name and whats-her-name
• loved gossiping about e-d-
• made me a mouse hunter
• used my mouse hunt account to send free gifts to herself
• disturbed me when i was at the crucial point of my tetris battle
• challenged me every 5 minutes on tetris battle even though we were trying to do project

yeah i'm sure you must be thinking that koh cheng xian laurel is a horrible person and you're so so so right! :D however, despite all the horrible things that she's done to me, i still love her! YES I LOVE YOU KOH CHENG XIAN LAUREL! <3

bf219!

FINALLY, i submitted the report and the cd to the prof today and ended the series of days of staring blindly at 10000++++ sets of ratios, reading 1000+++ pages of damodaran textbook, conducting 100++ regressions and fighting for the bloomberg machine with 10+ other people!

seriously, this is the worst project that i've done so far as throughout the whole course of the project, i've always been so totally lost not knowing what's going on. also, i have never finished any other report at such a last minute before. haha honestly, the deadline for submission is 8.30am and we only finished everything at like 8.22am? and in fact, someone was still editing the report at 8.33am when i had already copied the supposedly final report to the cd! :D

however, i've also learnt a lot thanks to this project. now i know how to use bloomberg, how to run regression on excel and how to sleep within your allocated time slot (since we sort of unofficially took turns to sleep last night with each of us sleeping for about 3-4 hours un-peacefully!)

all in all, now that its over and i'm thinking about it as a past event, i feel that this project was not that bad. at some parts, it was even enjoyable haha! :D laurel, you wei, wee ming and janek, thanks for being such a great team! (:

okay now this post sounds like a reflection paper! >.<

hungry until not hungry anymore! :(

haiz i am hungry until i am not hungry anymore! okay this doesn't make sense, but i'm too tired to make it sound logical. and do you think i really care? no, actually i don't! :D

anyways after a really long and depressing day, i am finally back in my room eating hokkien mee specially delivered to hall 10 by mishmish! (: while waiting for him, i took a 15 minute walk around hall and felt so much better, thanks to the fresh cool air and the beautiful scenery! yay now i am all ready to continue working on the valuation of dbs group holdings ltd!!! last lap yo!

charmander!

i wish i were a boy, really! :( being a girl sucks, especially in times like this. i thought i was going to die as it hurt so much to the extent that my vision became blurry and i felt like puking so badly that i didn't even want to eat my favourite beef set from the japanese stall in can 1 despite the efforts put in to beg laurel and youwei to go all the way there to buy food when we were still in nbs. it was just a horrible horrible experience! >.<

however, thanks to this incident, i discovered that panadol worked wonders! :D after taking just like one pill, i recovered like almost immediately, which made me so happy and high afterwards that my groupmates thought i was a monster who just suddenly fell sick and then recovered within seconds. no no no, i am not a monster. i am just a very healthy person! (:

anyways, thanks laurel and youwei for yesterday! although i don't exactly like you, i must admit that you were, hmm, quite helpful?

week 13!

rain theory!

my rain theory: people won't die from the rain but clothes will!

most interesting shower ever!

it may not sound humanly possible, but I FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER THIS MORNING IN HALL 10 BLOCK 50 LEVEL 5 BATHROOM! >.< the shower cubicle wasn't even half as comfortable as the one shown in the picture below, but somehow i could fall asleep! i just closed my eyes and let the water run for a good -- minute period (i shall not disclose the exact figure!) :D after a while, i think i realised that i was falling asleep, so i told myself that it wasnt the right place to sleep in and decided to shake myself awake. horrible, i know! i guess i was just too tired after just a 5 hour sleep last night! :(

fortunately, i came back hall early for the first time in many weeks today and managed to take a considerably looong afternoon nap without any disturbance! :D i got to talk to banana for almost 2 hours too and at the last part, we were both so lazy that we just turned the webcams to our beds while lying there to talk to each other. it felt as if we were lying side by side, gossiping anything and everything! I LOVE YOU BANANA! (:

anyways this weekend shall be a study-intensive weekend to make up for the previous sleep/play/entertainment-intensive one. i shall be good and study well! (:

can i have a banana subway please?

when you see the picture above, you may think that i'm like some spokesperson for subway. no, the truth is that i earn no commission or get no free subways for this advertisement. i am only doing this because while sub-happily chewing my subway sandwich during lecture today, i just suddenly realised how much i missed sharing a foot-long subway with banana! :'( she's my best subway buddy ever! we hardly ever had problems deciding which subway, which bread, which vegetables, which sauce, which cookie and which drink to order. i think i haven't bought a foot-long for about 2 years and that's about how long i haven't seen banana! arghhh and i don't even know why i'm stuck in this emoness again, as it's not like it's a new thing or what! >.<

on another note, i got rather irritated when people talk so loudly in my morning seminar/ noon lecture today. i wanted to tell them "please keep quiet, i'm trying to sleep here!" but thought that it'd be inappropriate so just tried to sleep amidst the noise. haiz i have a sad life, i know! :(

on another another note, sock taught me this new term yesterday - SUB-COOL! seriously sub-cool is like even cooler than cool! if you don't believe, try saying "i'm sub-cool!" and you will know what i'm talking about! ;)

lazy saturday!

hello world

i've done nothing constructive since morning and i'm so happy about it! :D in the morning, i just practically lazed around in the room till 11am after which I realised lazing around was boring. hence i decided to make better use of my time. however, immediately after i opened up the spss file laurel sent me for bf219 project, i closed it because the numbers scared the hell out of me! :( after spending a while stalking random PRETTY girls on facebook with xueqian, i started emo-ing when i was in the room alone on a sunny saturday. so i decided to cheer myself up with a movie since i haven't watched a proper movie for a long long long time. after screening through the list of movies on mysoju, i finally chose doremifasolatido!

the plot was nothing special, and there were many confusing parts. BUT there was a cute boy in the show! :D JANG GEUN SUK aka HWANG TAE KYUNG in you're beautiful. last time i noticed him but wasn't into him because my boyfriend kind of outshone him. however, in this show he looked really cute because he didn't wear eye-liners and have weird hair styles and wear gay clothes! :D

for your viewing pleasure:

 

after taking a short afternoon nap, i met supercats for a steamboat dinner which made me almost explode! :( haha i don't know why i'm always so full everytime i eat with them! i need to go jogging again tmr at the newly discovered jogging route in ntu which is like super quiet and scenic! (: maybe i'll go cathay starbucks to study and people-watch tmr, too!

although i complain a lot about emo-ing when alone, i feel that spending some mi-time once in a while is actually great! (:

i'm so over it!

hello family, friends and other loved ones,

this is just to announce that i'm officially over number 6! it's real this time, or at least i hope so! :D please remind me of this if i ever go crazy over number 6 again. thank you very much! your assistance is greatly appreciated! (:

rms exco meeting minute!

Date: 10 November 2010

Time: 10-11.30pm

Attendees: Ray, QP

Absentees: all the rest

Details:

Actions to be taken:

Ray: grow up

QP: -

Minute prepared by: QP

Minute vetted and approved by: QP

okay i know i can't prepare and vet and approve my own minute but whatever! i'm sure this is the best exco meeting ever in the whole history of rms! :D

passion. tenacity. integrity. in the pursuit of truth.

acjc has taught me well, too well indeed! yes, its been a while since i last visited the school or last sang the college anthem or last attended morning assembly. however, i still remember all the values i've learnt in acjc in my heart and, to my surprise, even practise them!

i had my chinese oral today. we were supposed to prepare six topics and would choose one of the six by drawing lots. i didn't really prepare anything much for any of the topics, as i was busy the whole week with what-you-would-not-want-to-know. however, there were certain topics which i was slightly more comfortable with, like talk about yourself, talk about your family or talk about your friends as i can practically talk about anything under the sun. so when it was my turn, i went in and saw six different pieces of paper on the teacher's desk, one of which was not properly folded so i could see what number was written in there. it happened to be one of the three topics mentioned above. i must admit that it was tempting to just pick that piece of paper and secure the (hopefully) A for oral. however, for some reasons i just couldn't pick up that piece of paper. it was like i heard mrs kelvyna chan's voice inside my head when she first told us about the college values all the way back during orientation in 2007. so in the end, i picked another piece of paper and ended up going out of the classroom after saying 5 sad sentences.

it wasn't my intial intention to talk about how the oral went, but i just thought it was a really funny experience, so it went like this: after my teacher told me the topic (describe your surroundings), i just totally zoned out and stared back at her in shock. while i was taking my own sweet time analysing the evil things around me, she looked up at me and caught my blurred face. i guess she pitied me as she probably knew that i didn't know how to say table/chair/board/door/window in chinese, so she told me i could talk about my hall instead as it was what we learnt in the previous lesson. despite her help, i still only managed to say 5 miserable sentences about my hall haha. after i finished, i realised she seemed to be still waiting for me to talk more, so i told her "erm, that's all!". upon hearing that, she went something like "HUH? THAT'S ALL??" and then i knew i was so so so screwed haha!

so yeah, back to the main topic. without us realising, the ac values have somehow been inculcated inside each and every of us and will continue following us till the end of time. i know there's been much bad rumour going around about ac lately and some people have been telling me that i don't seem to be that ac-ish anymore, but i am still a proud acsian! (: I LOVE AC!

bee!

I GOT STUNG BY A BEE YESTERDAY! :( it was so painful, i thought i was going to get my toe chopped off. okay there you've got it, yeah, i got stung at my toe! >.< what a weird place to be stung at right? the whole story is really long, but in short, i got stung by a bee which died after biting me and my toe was really red and swollen. now my toe is fine but my leg is in pain! :( is the poison from the bee sting slowly traveling up my body? would i die once the poison gets to my heart? i'm officially worried!

a photo of the sad bee:

áo dài!

looking at my friend's graduation pictures makes me so so so jealous! no, i am not jealous because she's graduated since i'm perfectly happy in school and have no special interest in starting to work so early. the main reason to my envy is that EVERYONE WORE ÁO DÀI TO THE CEREMONY AND THEY ALL LOOKED SO SO SO PRETTY!

i've never had a proper set for myself! :( so when the need arises, i'd just go around asking people of my size whether they have a set to lend me and so far that tactic has worked wonders as i almost always have a set to wear when i need (which is like once every 2 years!). okay to be honest, i've never been a big fan of áo dài as i thought it was so inconvenient and uncomfortable to wear such clothes. i love my dresses, but now i realise that áo dài is actually very pretty too (i guess i'm just naturally attracted to colourful/flowery things)! maybe i should get one set tailor-made when i get home this coming holiday and it's gonna be a stunningly pretty and colourful one and i'm gonna look just like a princess lalala! :D

rain.

haiz i want to go jogging in the evening later but it seems like a storm is coming soon! :( this is bad, over the last few days all my exercising plans have been screwed due to unforeseen circumstances. yeah, the other day i couldn't swim because when i reached the swimming pool, i realised that it was closed. similarly, today i cant run because of the bad weather! argh i feel so fat fat fat now! >.< i guess i'm just destined to be that way!

however, i love the feelings the rain always brings along with it every time it comes. it's just so fresh, cooling and windy! (: i love the smell of the rain too! it's just great, especially when i can just peacefully sit in my room watching the rain and doing whatever i wish! haha somehow, the rain is making me so happy now and gives me the motivation to properly study for my accounting mid-term on monday (which i've failed miserably to do since morning). weird, i know, haha! :D

dreams.

i had at least 3 dreams last night and now i still remember most of them vividly which is rather weird because usually i don't remember my dreams.

the first dream was about 2sb4 or, to be more exactly, animal farm. in the dream, we were all back to AC all over again just like how everything was 2 years ago. it felt so real that i thought i was really still a JC student studying for A levels. maybe deep down inside, my sub-conscious secretly wishes to be back to JC times as it was so much more fun and so much less stressful. haha or maybe i just miss my animal farm. the last time i saw them was like, funorama?

the second dream was about supercats. if i remember correctly, we were just having dinner and gossiping like always in the dream. haha yay i'll be meeting all of them for a home-cooked dinner later! so happppppy!

the third dream was the weirdest of all! i dreamt that I GOT MARRIED TO MY 'HUSBAND'!! OMG SO STRANGE!!! i totally freaked out when i woke up! i guess i've been too traumatised by the unusual thought about him being ___ and my own imagination. hicks what do i do now? the thought is constantly haunting me, even in my dream! :(

289th!

i've had the urge to blog so badly over the last few days but i knew if i blogged, the entry would have been an emo post due to various reasons and since it'd be the special 289th entry, i'd rather not blog at all than fill the blog with my emo-ness! taadaa finally today is here and the happy pea is back lalala! why am i happy? i also have no idea but i've been super high since afternoon! :D :D :D

so, after spending the whole of my (non-existent) recess week on project meetings, briefings and cca activities, and still going for 5-hour dinners at weekends and then finally freaking out last night over investments mid-term test, i've realised that i seriously need to manage my time more wisely. hence, this special entry shall be on my new term's resolutions! applying the SMART rule of goal setting, my resolutions are as follows:

1. i shall read ALL my lecture notes and required readings in the textbooks by the end of the week.

2. i shall do ALL my tutorials diligently before the lessons.

3. i shall finish my project tasks promptly.

4. i shall complete ALL the outstanding rms stuff within ONE week from the date they arise.

5. i shall spend at most an hour on facebook everyday (on a cumulative basis).

6. i shall spend at most an hour on msn everyday (unless it's for project discussion).

7. i shall spend at most an hour talking on the phone everyday.

8. i shall eat at least 5 apples, 5 oranges and 5 bananas a week.

9. i shall drink at least 1 litre of water everyday.

10. i shall sleep at least 8 hours a day.
11. i shall run at least once a week.
12. i shall swim at least once a week.

this picture above has nothing to do with the content of this post. i just thought it was cute, that's all! from this time/day onwards, i shall try to keep to all the promises i've made to myself above! i shall be a changed pea! i shall make myself proud of myself! (:

here's another random picture! :D

after spending days playing nbs parking craze, i'm finally a parking expert! :D however, i only reached level 4 (that's sad, i know!) but its okay. i shall not be too addicted to online games and distractions like this anymore from now until the end of this semester. i am so academically focused now i know right? ;)

hungry? not anymore!

i was so hungry just now.

i didn't feel like eating snacks, biscuits or chips.

i didn't have any proper food in hall.

i was too lazy to go out for supper.

i emo-ed in the room alone because sock wasn't there.

i told linh about my hunger which exacerbated it even more because we couldn't stop fantasising about all the things that we wanted to eat.

and then i called mush and ...

TADA I HAD SEW MAI AND CHAR SIEW BAO DELIVERED TO MY DOORSTEP! :D

i am so full now that i can barely breath and its almost 11 already! :( but at least, if i die now, i'll still be a happy spirit! :D

brother cats!

hurhur i suddenly have 2 new brother cats today and they say i can come and talk to them anytime!!! this marks the end of the endless years being the oldest not just in the family but also the extended families of both father and mother sides! i am so happy now! :D :D :D

haha i think this picture is just so retarded retarded retarded but cute cute cute!

outlook!

yay my outlook is finally working! :D :D :D my rms-finance account has undergone a major renovation and is super organised and looks so much better now. the emails i am going to send will also be much more qp-ish compared to previously, as now i am free to change the font, size and colour as i wish and also bold, italise and underline all i want! :D :D :D this is great, really and i've never been happier before! thanks weewee, you're the best (even better than kiwi!) :D

oh no, i just added in my rms signature but the pictures cant be seen! :( this is bad, i shall try to figure out how to make the logo and the facebook thing and the twitter thing appear on my own! i have confidence in my IT skills this time! :D

i used to live alone before i knew you.

is it true that missing someone gets easier everyday because even though it is one day further from the last time you saw each other, it is one day closer than the next time you will? it sounds very nice and all, but i dont think its true, at least not for me. haiz its been just one day and i feel as if it had been a millennium. i just suck, i know! :(

notes to self: 1) be independent, 2) appreciate what you have.

priorities!

okay this post has been in my draft for a few days but i haven't found the time to complete it yet. haiz i guess i shouldnt be too lazy and instead, complete this post before i forget what i originally wanted to write. so yeah, the thing here is that i was talking to yellowsunflower on msn the other day and somehow the topic of time came up. he told me he used to do this and that but not anymore because he couldn't afford the time and wanted to do this and that but couldn't because of the same reason. so i asked him, "would you ever have the time?"

indeed, we often ask ourselves why there is so little time to do anything in university while there used to be so much time previously in secondary school/jc. similarly, we also ask some others why they always seem so free and have so much more time than we do. however, i'm quite certain that most of us do realise that we still have 24 hours a day now, just like in the past and everyone has the same 24 hours a day. the difference is how we allocate our time between the many activities that we are involved in, or in other words, set our priorities.

i am not a high flyer, so getting first class honours/ joining 10 ccas/ doing 10 internships do not really matter to me, or at least, not yet. i just want to be a happy person with a happy life. thats why i spend a lot of my time talking to people, meeting my friends, or just doing random things. people may think that doing such things is a waste of time, but to me, those occasions are when my time is best spent! (:

having said all of the above, i still cant deny the fact that i am a full-time matriculated student at nanyang business school, nanyang technological university! :( maybe i should spend my recess week rearranging my priority list!

rmsms!

rmsms was really effective today! i managed to finish last semester's aa102 quizzes and read through some of the bf215 notes. hmm now that i've just listed out the things i did, it doesnt seem that effective haha, but i'm sure i would have been able to do that much if i were to go back hall. yay this is good! there should be more rmsms! at this rate, i think a gpa of 5.0 or even 6.0 this semester is within my reach (NOT!) haha! :D

initially when i first suggested this idea, i felt a bit guilty because it was a lifeguards thing. however, now i don't feel so bad anymore. good things should be shared right? (: if more people adopt this concept, the world will be a wonderful place with love everywhere, just exactly like how lifeguards used to be and and rms is.

its been so long since...

... i had lunch with lifeguards.
... i studied at starbucks while people-watching.
... i had a long and proper talk with one of my girlfriends.

I DID ALL OF THE THINGS I HAVEN'T DONE FOR SO LONG TODAY! (: if only life could be this simple then i'd be the happiest girl on earth!

conformists.

I am supposed to be working on my BF219 project but just can’t focus because what is happening around me is a total distraction. I just can’t imagine why some people can be so insensitive to the extent that it is evil. It’s hard to understand how torturing others is so enjoyable to them. Okay, maybe most of them do not find it pleasurable, but those people are just conforming to something deemed as the norm, the tradition, or the popular practice as everyone else is doing it.

I am in no good position to evaluate or criticise their actions. We’re all old enough to decide what is right and what is wrong. I’ve decided for myself that I’d rather be the odd one out rather to going against my principles just to be part of the “big happy family”.

make-up!

to rehearse for the photoshoot on friday, i've just spent the last 30 minutes attempting to put on make-up on the right half of my face and the result is that I LOOK LIKE A MONSTER!!! omg seriously, i am so hopeless!! i dont understand why we have to put on make-up for the photoshoot while we look wayyy better without!! okay, maybe i am just saying this because i totally suck at putting on make-up! :(

dear gods and goddesses, please make me look like this on friday without having to go through all the horrible tortures. i promise i'll take a make-up course after this semester is over.

rip moth!

a moth flew into my room, hit the fan and was cut into half just now! :( if it just died that way, there wouldn't be much to talk abt. the horrible thing here is that after they (the two halves of the moth) landed on the floor, the one with the head was still moving. no, it was not just moving, IT FLEW FRANTICALLY AROUND IN MY ROOM!!!

sock and i were horrified. all we could do was to hug each other, screaming and crying. however, that didnt solve anything, so i decided that we needed to get some help. i wanted to call 999 initially, but i thought it'd not be a good idea, because they'd probably take years to come. hence, i went to theresa's room to ask her and eva to come over with their broom and dust pan. unfortunately, all 4 of us couldn't do anything but pray to the moth(s).

desperate, i even went online to do some research abt moths and begged edwin and ching wei for help but nothing worked out because all the suggested solutions would require either one of us to touch the moth(s)!! fortunately, after hearing non-stop screaming for about 20 mins (or at least that was what xiaojiao claimed), xiaojiao and 3 guys came over and they managed to, hmm, bring the moth(s) to heaven. not so long after the moth(s) was/were gone, 4 other guys from 3rd floor came up!!! they were so responsive, i know right?

okay end of story. i just wanted to record down this story because i felt that it was one in a million. haiz, now i need to get a rest to recover from the trauma. bye world! oh by the way, i think the reputation that i've been trying to build in hall is now gone! :(

time.

please dont ask me why i am so busy these days because seriously i dont know why either. its not like i want to be busy. if given a choice, i certainly would love to eat my meals on time, sleep as much as i wish to and do whatever i want whenever i please.

i used to not be able to comprehend why some people kept asking for more time. now i totally understand how it feels to have to wish that there were more than 24 hours a day.

and i am not angry at you, so please dont take it personally. i am just in such a very unhappy mood that i feel like screaming screaming screaming!!!

happiness!

after 21 years on earth, i finally discovered a really plain truth to a question not just I but thousands of others have been asking ourselves for years - what is happiness? wikipedia defines it as "a state of mind or feeling characterised by contentment, love, satisfaction, pleasure, or joy." my definition is not even half as sophisticated as it doesnt involve theories like self-actualisation and so on. to me, happiness is simple. it arises from small little things which happen everyday. this week, i’ve been showered with love and overwhelmed by happiness, thanks to all the wonderful people around me. i’ve learnt that happiness is:

·         lazing in 103 dang van ngu street

·         roaming around hanoi with banana

·         going on random adventures/ shopping spree/ food hunts with mush

·         having meals/ gossip sessions with supercats in hall 2

·         skyping with banana and getting virtual kisses from her

·         randomly meeting gay trio for breakfast/ lunch/ tea/ dinner/ supper

·         swimming with lifeguards

·         going to school and screaming like mad after seeing my eye-candies

·         acting bimbotic with hall 10 friends

·         discussing work and life with rms

yes, my happiness revolves around people. so maybe i am really a people person after all.being a people person, however, has its pros, cons and also procons, one of which is that i think i have too many friends! a very evident data to support this claim is that i was struggling last week trying to arrange my timetable somehow so that i could meet all my friends for meals but still failed miserably to do so. 

i often question myself a thousand times over before deciding to promote someone from an acquaintance/ colleague to a friend. however, i usually get tired after thinking for a while because i am clearly not a logical person, so i'd just simply go with my feelings and promote the person. however, promoting someone indirectly signals demoting someone else, as i cant possibly spend time with all my friends since i only have 24 hours a day and 7 days a week. no, although i do number and then denumber my eye candies, i dont friend and then defriend anyone! even though i may not get to see you often, i still love all of you okay friends? (:

i am thankful for my happiness! (:

polaroids!

I WANT A FUJI INSTAX MINI 7 OR ANY FUJI INSTAX MINI CAMERA  OR ANY POLAROID CAMERA!!! WHERE TO BUY WHERE TO BUY WHERE TO BUY???

health week? hell week!

HEALTH WEEK AND EXCO INTERVIEWS ARE FINALLY OVER!!! no more:

- not being able to sleep at night

- waking up at 7 am

- reaching hall at 11 pm

if i were normal like everyone else, i would be happier than anyone ever was since the worst week of the semester was over. however, this is hardly the case! :( after lessons today, i was horrified when i realised that i was heading to the club room although there was no good reason for me to go there and it was totally out of the way. i guess i've just been too used to camping in that room after lessons to wait for the interviews to start. and now i have a special personal preference for s3-sr1 just because it was the room we booked for our interviews! >.<

its about time for me to stop attaching emotional values to inanimate objects/ random places. i know this habit of mine is not healthy but i just cant help it! :( i know that i cant have something/ cant stay at one place forever and there must be farewell at some point, so i just keep telling myself over and again that i should not grow any form of special bond to anything/anywhere. however, its just so not me and i cant do it! :(

okay i shall stop ranting and start doing something constructive! i am so lagging behind and i still have tons of work to do. go peaaaaaaaaaa!

anyways, a photo from the interview days! (: those days were not easy. edwin fell sick. erica fell sick. i was constantly blurred due to the lack of sleep. ching wei had to make 13458646082 trips a day from smu to ntu. haha and honestly i dont think those days are over yet. however, the difficult times through which we are passing have afforded to us a confirmation of our faith in rms and ourselves and a glimpse of hope for an eventful year ahead. arghhh oh no i am forming a bond with rms and i think this may not be a good thing! :(

magnifying glass!

i opened my eyes for the first time this morning at 7am. for some reasons, my head was full of weird/random thoughts, one of which was about a glass with a handle when you see through which things would look bigger. i thought so long of the name for that glass that i couldnt go back to sleep anymore! :( since sock was awake, i asked her what the word for that glass was and when she told me "er, MAGNIFYING GLASS?", i went like "OH YEAAAAAH!" :D

haha this is bad! i think i am used to waking up at 7ish! :( and now i am having a headache hicks. roooooar i am a lion!!!

coordination?

have you ever experienced a situation when your head thinks of something but your hands write down something else? it happens to me so often that i get very irritated. omg and it is happening now too! :(

taitai!

the other day, when i was attempting to do my accounting tutorial, a question suddenly popped up in my head "why am i even doing accounting tutorial?" this question led to a few other questions, such as:

"why am i even doing a double degree in business and accountancy?"

"am i going to work as a private banker or an accountant in the future?"

"what do i want to be in the future?"

so after giving it very serious thoughts, i realised that actually my ultimate dream was to become a taitai!!!! >.< in the future, if i really become one, what i will do everyday would be:

- organising parties/ birthday celebrations

- going out/ shopping with fellow taitais

- giving tuition/ teaching at a kindergarten/ primary school/ secondary school

and the list goes on...

oh no what should i do now? :(

ps. i am not sure if i should blame my scgs education. it certainly contributes a part in me having thoughts like this, but then again, maybe its just me!

please forgive me for excessive blogging today. today is just one of those days when i feel like spamming posts after posts! :D

facebook stalker!

if you know me well enough, you will probably know what a facebook stalker i am! :D a lot of people have been amazed by my ability to, hmm, do research on facebook. i am so good that i occasionally consider the option of switching my occupation from a banker/accountant to a private investigator/ spying agent! :D

so anyways, the purpose of this post is actually not to show off how much of a stalker i am. what i wanted to say originally is that i just realised something - the people i stalk on facebook nowadays are different from those stalked by me 2 years ago, 2 months ago and even 2 weeks ago. the same thing goes for the people i spend my time with nowadays. good/bad? :O

6.30am!

my day started at 6.30am today and ended not so long ago. haha its been a really long time since i last woke up at 6ish in the morning, esp when i slept at 1 the night before. surprisingly, i felt super awake and energetic in the morning! :D everything felt different at 6.30am and i watched sunrise in ntu for the first time! (: the view from my room was just spectacular and here are some photos!

so i went to school to meet ching wei first before heading down to esplanade. we were terribly late that i had to walk with the speed at which sock ran her 2.4 (this is probably not a good estimate but you get a rough idea of how fast i walked!) :D throughout the whole day, we went to a lot of places, played a lot of games and did a lot of walking, too! :( haha and i acted extremely exxx and ogl-ish omg!!!

i wanted to write a lot of things just now but now i cant seem to remember what i wanted to write anymore. i think my brain kind of shut down since around 4ish in the afternoon haha! so for now, i shall just post up random thoughts in a disorganised manner. i seldom do this but today is an exception okay?

random thought #1: i think the camwhorish qp is back!

random thought #2: sometimes i am really amazed at my ability to transform from an ixxx to an exxx. today i transformed by slapping my cheeks 3 times!

random thought #3: i cant really feel my legs now! :( shouldnt have stood on the train on the way back!

random thought #4: i am tired but somehow i cant fall asleep. the same thing happened last night.

random thought #5: i hereby declare that i officially love rms now! (:

random thought #6: my birthday is coming and i am not even a bit excited.

random thought #7: my parents asked me to go home during recess week to help them move house.

random thought #8: my parents are going to throw away everything in my room and just keep the bed.

random thought #9: edwin, ching wei and erica should be sleeping by now (or at least i hope so!). i should be sleeping soon too.

okay bye world, i am really going to bed! (: have a great sunday and monday and tuesday and wednesday and thursday and friday and saturday!