peaphne?

is peaphne (pronounced as piffany) too cute a name to be professional? i love that name seriously, but i still have to think twice whether to use it for work related purposes as it'll sort of be my brand name for life! >.< haiz we know life's tough when whether to be cute is no longer your personal decision!

one day too late.

okay now i understand the situation that my friends were in not so long ago. it was easy coming up with 1001 options and telling them which one was, maybe not necessarily the best, but the most ethical. however, now that i'm in the same situation, the decision doesn't come that easily anymore.

life's really interesting, isn't it? just one week ago, i didnt have anything and was worried like hell where i'd end up in may. now, just about one week later, i suddenly have two offers and have no choice but to reject the preferred choice. and the funny thing here is that the b&f test shows that i'm someone with no ethics, so why am i even going with the more ethical option?

haiz i shall not dwell on this. like come on, it's just an internship and what's the big deal right? i guess i'm just not fated to be with sgx this year. next year i'll try applying again to not just sgx but also all the other banks/companies/organisations which i have missed out this year because of my laziness. yay that's the amazing thing about being a double degree student, haha, and probably the only one!

flu.

i think i'm finally recovering from the flu. its quite a sucky feeling i must say as the drowsiness makes me stupid and do stupid things. like you know, there's this kid, small pea, who just doesnt listen to her sister, big pea, at all? i still cant say for sure that i feel perfectly normal like nothing has happened now. but give it a few more days, and i'll be strong again! (:

love no evil!

if i see no evil, hear no evil and speak no evil, will i love no evil? i guess if i go by logical reasoning, the answer should be yes. however, the heart is never logical. mine is so irrational that i can't stand it anymore! >.<

i'm too used to seeing/hearing/speaking to you almost everyday that now i feel really uneasy not seeing/hearing/speaking to you. i feel bad, but what can i do now? hmm or maybe i'm just so used to being busy that having nothing to do seems like a torture now.

shooooooe!

my whine for today shall be short and sweet: i miss screaming SHOE SHOE loudly every time i come back hall and open my room door after one long day at school! :(

ethics?

am i really that unethical? :( i can't believe that i actually failed the stupid ethics test. i mean yeah, i kind of knew that i did horribly for it since i was so very unsure of all my answers and expected nothing good of it. however i still felt really emoish when i saw the evil email which informed me that i would need to retake the test again. haiz and i am still not even certain of the possibility of me actually passing the retest. somehow i have the feelings that i'll just keep having to retake it till like year 4 arggh! :(

to all the innocent souls out there who intend to take bnf as your major, i hereby formally warn you that bnf is like the most evil anything could ever get in the whole history of mankind, so stay away from it!

living in my own world!

i am an idealist. although sometimes i can appear to be extremely pragmatic and calculative, those times are really rare as truth is that i am so not realistic at all.

i am also a perfectionist. that's a fact and sometimes even i myself can't stand my perfectionism and just wish that i weren't a perfectionist.

i am a hopeless romantic. i like fairy tales with happy endings and often listen and get high over taylor swift songs.

thanks to these different sides of me and many others not listed here, i often picture in my head ideal stories of which i am usually the main character. you may think that i am weird, but that's fine. a lot of people say i am constantly living in my own world. whatever, as long as my world is a happy happy world! (:

sunny sunday!

thanks to my alarm clock which refused to ring at 9, i slept for 3 hours longer and am feeling extremely satisfied and energetic now! :D :D :D maybe having a phone which occasionally hangs isn't necessarily a bad thing! lalala i'm going for lunch now and then after i come back, i shall not take a nap or do any random thing. instead, i will study study study really hard for my accounting quiz on monday (omg and that's tmr!) (:

when i was doing my 5-week-overdue tutorial last night, somehow i felt really happy and i was amazed that i actually enjoyed doing accounting! yes learning should be like that right? i finally see joy in accounting! i hope this can last for at least this semester haha! :D

whineeeeeeeee!

haiz i dont understand why and how i can whine anytime anywhere about anything and everything to anyone and everyone! :( usually i just whine and whine and whine without really listening to what i'm whining about. however today i got tired just from listening to my own whining. hicks that's how bad it is. OMG and now i'm even whining about me whining. i guess this is the end of the world (quoted from thomas haha!) >.<

our hearts, our hope, our aims are one!

so today is acs 125th founders day! i just had a very strong urge to go back to ac since i haven't been there for ages. however, i had lessons for like the whole day and then a group meeting which lasted forever, so there wasn't time! :( but anyways i wore my lovely red collegiate to school today since its wear your acs day! (: i was so tired for the whole day since i slept really little last night, but when i saw another person in a yellow collegiate in ntu, i just couldn't help smiling to myself and suddenly felt so energetic again, knowing that i wasn't all alone in this world!

on this day - acs 125th founders day - i missed ac so so so much! :(