uncool!

september has always been my favourite month, like since the beginning of time. but this year's september hasn't been good to me. so many horrible things have been happening and sometimes i just wish that this september were just a nightmare and would be over once i wake up.

i've always detested those competitive monsters in nbs who know about everything and anything academic. i've always made fun of how they dont have a life, since they only spend their time on school work and nothing more than that. i've always wondered how they stand living in such a pathetic way. but guess what? now i wish i could be a bit more like them.

since the start of university, i've never been really aware of what's going on around me academically. i mostly depend on my friends for notes, latest announcements and deadlines. i'm too lazy to find out information on my own, even though the information may be important to me. like they often say, 'if you fail to plan, you plan to fail.' i know how true it is now.

well, i guess i really deserve to be scolded. i really deserve to be rid of a chance to go for exchange. i really deserve to face the consequences of my failure to plan. but i still feel that it's just too cruel and i can't stop crying! =((((((((( i know its uncool, but who cares?