life as an adult.

if there is only one thing the last 3 years spent in ntu have taught me, the first thing that comes to my mind is the lesson of how to live independently. before entering university, i had always been confident that i was independent (well, any other girl who had been living away from her family since the age of 15 would have assumed the same thing!). however, only when i had to decide what to eat every meal, worry about where to live in the following year and manage my finances on my own did i realise and fully appreciate the good life we enjoyed when we were in secondary and jc.

things just gets better! the decision to move out of campus was a big one, and hence it wasn't made easily.  when i return to singapore this august, not only will big items like rentals and utilities give me headache, small things such as the fact i can't just simply call 67904777 to report a choked basin anymore will need to be taken care of, because they will not take care of themselves. life as an adult isn't easy, is it?

thanks to all these small little worries, i ain't one bit excited about coming back to singapore and have been trying to delay the trip. spending 3 months at home has made me lazy, and i'm just a little bit scared to be on my own again. i can't help but just keep comparing life at these two places, both of which are close to my heart. and then i discovered where i really belong.

i guess i now understand why old people always wish to return to their hometown after they've lived most of their life accomplishing things they wanted/ had to. i wonder what they feel abt the places they have left behind when they return to their starting point. i guess they also go through the same phases as i did during these 3 months away from singapore. and if i ever have to be away from singapore for 3 years or 30 years, what i will experience can't be too significantly different. at this moment, there's just one tiny string which ties me to singapore. when that string is untied, or is tied to another end, i guess i can just leave.