till the work be done.

my hands have never been so dirty and oily before.

my hands have never been so dry and rough before.

my hands have never been so full of cuts and bruises before.

these thoughts came to me when i looked at my hands while washing the dishes, and just suddenly made me so emotional and stressed. other negative thoughts started flooding my mind, like 'this is not what i wanted', 'why am i doing this?', 'i could have been lazing around somewhere', 'i wish i could just give everything up and disappear'... and i swear i just wanted to break down in tears immediately.

but hey, guess what? i'm no longer such a baby - i didn't cry and neither did i complain! over the past 2 months, i've been working almost everyday without any break at all and all my daily routines are messed up. i spend almost all my waking hours at work and hardly have any time for myself or my family or my friends. i'm always so tired and sleepy, sometimes to the extent that i could just faint. but things arent working out too well yet at the moment so i'll be strong and continue doing what i have to do and hopefully everything will be fine!