lovely tan lines.

i was showering just now and i saw my tan line and then i suddenly burst out crying in the shower! it was not my first time seeing my tan line so why did i cry? i guess i was too scared that if i stopped swimming now, my tan line would be gone in a few weeks/months and so would all the memories related to that lovely tan line. yes its true that i used to hate my tan line very much because i couldnt wear my nice dresses. but now i just dont want my tan line to fade away. for the very first time in my life, i dont want to be white but remain black like this instead.

haiz i shall take a few photos of my tan line before it is gone. this is probably the time when i am the darkest through out my entire life. similarly, this is the time when the rest of the lifeguards are blackest. and this is also the time when we're the closest! trainings and competition really bond us so well. now everything is over. i cant help but asking myself questions like, 'what if we're not as close anymore after this saturday?', 'what if all the couples break up for long distance relationships rarely work out?', and 'what if we lose touch after we graduate?', etc.

i was talking to quynh and we realised that our june holidays were not as useless as we thought. although we hardly completed any homework, we spent the entire holidays training so hard for our competition. it was so nice having trainings 4 times a week! now even if we go swimming together for fun, the feeling wont be the same anymore. coach jeremy wont be there to take timing for us. we wont swim lap after lap after lap anymore because there is no need to train our stamina anymore. we wont have the manikin to tow anymore because rachel handed the locker keys to kah lok already. basically we wont be able to do a lot of what we used to anymore.

after that during dinner stupid quynh suddenly sang the "i want to hold your hand..." song which reminded me of the last training that we had together when quynh and oreo kept singing that song which irritated me so very much! arghhh i almost cried again, but i tried to hold my tears.

jun said its scary how i cry so easily. but if its for acjc lifeguards, i would not mind. and i've been ranting on and on about lifeguards so much these days that jun is always like, "are you talking about lifeguards again?". its really true when people say that when you're too much into something, its hard to let go.