fairness?

indeed, nothing is fair in life. 

no matter how hard you try, no one seems to care. no matter how much effort you put in, no one seems to notice. no matter how far beyond your duty you go, no one seems to appreciate. however, when something bad happens, you take all the blame. interesting scenario, isn't it? so how do you explain what's happening here?

well i guess if you are truly a selfless hero/heroine who really sacrifices yourself for others, you wouldn't be having these thoughts. but i am NOT. i am a normal girl, with feelings, just like you, so i don't like it either when i think i'm being treated unfairly. however, i have to tell myself that it is not a big deal. i am a whiner, so i LOVE to complain. however, i keep my emotions to myself instead of showing them to others because i don't want everyone to be affected. i am a calculative person, however, i don't mind being at a disadvantage sometimes because i'd like to keep the harmonious atmosphere.

there have been a lot of occasions when i ask myself why i am doing all the things i've been doing. there have been a lot of occasions when i convince myself that they are not my responsibilities. there have been a lot of occasions when i force myself to stop doing all the things i've been doing. but i just can't!

at times like this, i really wish that i had a lot a lot a lot of money so that i could buy myself a place of my own to hide from all these troubles! ):