it was horrible and left me speechless after it ended. never before in my life had i gone through such an experience before. yes, i totally agree that there's always a first time for everything, but for this, no i'd rather that there would never be a first time.
so i had my investments paper today. during the last few weeks of school, the thought of mc-ing the paper was continually in my mind but in the end, i thought i was sufficiently well prepared, thanks to the wonderful cheatsheet that i spent one whole week doing and was super proud of, so i decided to take the paper so that i'd not have to retake it next semester. on the way to the exam hall, i even asked myself "what is the worst thing that can happen?" and the answer was simple, "the worst thing would be that i fail investments and have to retake it next semester, which is totally in part of the plan." hence there was virtually no reason for me to be sad or anything. and so i went into the exam hall with confidence.
the MCQs were alright, which means i could do half and could guess half. after spending the first hour on the MCQs, i moved on to the structured questions.
first question, "hmm that seems difficult, okay skip first and come back later."
second question, "wow this is hard too, okay skip first and come back later."
third question, "omg what does it mean? i've never heard such a term before. never mind, hopefully question 4 will be better."
fourth question, "huh? isnt it supposed to be in bf219? what is it doing here in bf215 paper?"
yes, i spent 15 minutes flipping through the question paper and in the end, wrote 3 lines in my answer booklet. i so wanted to leave the hall after that, but i guessed i'd feel really guilty if i really did that, since there were still 45 more minutes till the end of the paper and i didnt like finish it or anything. so i stayed in the exam hall, admiring the beauty of my cheatsheet, observing people around me and staring at the clock, waiting for time to pass.
after the paper, i still hoped that the bell curve would somehow work out some magic to save me. however, when i was walking out of the hall, i heard these guys discussing abt the paper with one another and the first thing i heard went something like this "omg i'm so scared, i think i can only get A- for investments!" awwww, so sad right? poor guy, he must be devastated! i figured he'd even be more so if i gave him a slap on the face.
talking to chingwei and erica after the paper made me feel a bit better. but after i left business library and walked to the bus stop alone, i felt really sad again. i didnt know why i even felt sad, especially when i was mentally prepared since the very beginning. i guess i didnt expect it to be that bad. the -ies in hall was so worried when they saw me, or my spirit, flying into the room. all i could tell them was "winnie died, investments killed her."
okay hello everyone! i didnt really want to blog about exams, but since this is an once-in-a-lifetime experience (hopefully), it would be a waste not mentioning it at all. yeah, so here i am, fully recovered after the emotional trauma and all ready to ace bf219 to make up for the losses incurred in bf215.
i'd like to thank laurel and cherry for the very encouraging messages, chingwei and erica for talking to me, -ies for the concern and the 3 of you for watching hello stranger with me! (:
so i guess i cant say goodbye to all these things yet haha!
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