a short-sighted person, i honestly have no long term vision. well, you may be wondering why i ain't wearing any spectacles but hey, i'm not talking in the most literal sense of the words. what i mean is that i prefer seeing immediate results in the things i do rather than waiting for a long term achievement. this may suggest that i'm not forward-looking which isn't exactly a good thing, but i just can't help it.
my internship is really making my life miserable. i don't know how many times i've said this already, but it's a fact that needs to be emphasised. i left the office today, totally emotional and unresponsive. if you had seen me on the way to the mrt station, you'd probably have thought that i were just a soulless body or something. but honestly i felt that life was so meaningful since i'd been doing the same things at work everyday without seeing any major impact whatever i was doing had brought/ could potentially bring to someone else's life. this is not where i should be. i think i'd be better off being a doctor/nurse/teacher/care-giver/customer service officer where i can see people instead of numbers or words.
my only consolation now is that this internship will be ending soon. haish i wonder how i'd survive when i officially start working in the future since for that, i won't be able to see an end to the long series of sufferings. looking at those people squeezing themselves onto the train at the end of a tiring day at work, i really can't tell how man of them are actually happy. maybe none? so is it a good deal selling your soul everyday for a few thousand dollars every month?
urgg i'm turning sockish!!! someone please save me from myself!! i want to revert to the QP of 4 years ago who blogged about meaningless stuff rather than things which actually make sense.
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